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[Mar. 24th, 2008|11:41 am] |
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Somewhere in the mist,
The haze where I sit
Dwelling upon all that has wronged
The hearts of those that bore for so long
Wonder not what I’ve been
Wonder not on what’s seen
Know only that I live
And with reprieve
There’s a silhouette of a person
Shadowed on the wall
Looks of female persuasion
More description would be ballsy
Hunched down on knees
Looks to be mourning indeed
Near a silhouette of a cradle
Hand on the side of its mantle
In this haze I sit…
Somewhere in the mist
Dwelling upon all that has wronged
The hearts of those that bore for so long
(thats all I have so far, anyone wanna comment? I want critisism! lol. good bad, they're all good.)
oo lookie pretty picture below
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| I just got a nudge |
[Mar. 23rd, 2008|01:25 pm] |
So Hi, I have been nudged and I'm writing...
Not much in the way of the world is going on that I wanted to really get into. Other than right now I'm watching hellsing, the one with the guy that's wolvereen in x-men, jackmen.. or something like that.
MOO. |
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| HAPPY NEW YEAR! |
[Dec. 31st, 2006|04:57 pm] |
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okay, happy new year everyone!!!!
that is all... and, yeah.. lol bye!
AMANDA!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Quiz... in a way. |
[Dec. 20th, 2006|01:52 pm] |
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| | Das Gestandnis, Das Testament | ] |
What type of marsupial is this?
What type of Breed is this African beauty?
(hint they are both Extinct) |
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| Random thoughts..again |
[Dec. 20th, 2006|12:19 pm] |
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http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html
Explanation: For reasons unknown, NGC 6357 is forming some of the most massive stars ever discovered. Near the more obvious Cat's Paw nebula, NGC 6357 houses the open star cluster Pismis 24, home to these tremendously bright and blue stars. The overall red glow near the inner star forming region results from the emission of ionized hydrogen gas. The surrounding nebula, shown above, holds a complex tapestry of gas, dark dust, stars still forming, and newly born stars. The intricate patterns are caused by complex interactions between interstellar winds, radiation pressures, magnetic fields, and gravity. NGC 6357 spans about 400 light years and lies about 8,000 light years away toward the constellation of the Scorpion.
yay!
Oddly enough these things were just some of what I was looking at today.... *blink* yes, I have little work to do and much time to do it in today. No overtime for me. *hangs head* oh well...
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[May. 5th, 2006|09:18 am] |
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[May. 5th, 2006|12:37 am] |
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Bankruptcy is te suxor.
alittle unsure how to cope with it being the only option left.
mooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
anyone have emotion killers? I should get some. Seriously LOL!
The Event is this weekend. is te awesomxors.....awesomness bestowed in little kisses of tiny razor thin scratches allover my skin, and douses me in bleeding memory of why not to return......and with love that beckons me with pins and needles of lucrative waves of drugged misery that have quenched my soul in the past. But alas....it is a memory.
yay, momentary blunder of nice sounding words fitting together in sereen madness.
Game is good, not good if you don't like reality and game is the only thing keeping you sane. heh. eh well. moo.
People come tomorrow! YEY! see people I miss, get to pounce! well not so much....on the pouncing.. someoen said no biting... I said Awwwww.
Mothers day is approaching, I got my mom a Penguin movie. she loves penguins.
Happy moms day to all that are Moms! :-) Im saying it now because I'll forget later. ..LIke normal. :-( Eh anyways.
Gregg and I are good. thats all I'll say. :-D
I wonder if it will always be this way.... hmmmm, into the mouth of madness we go... what wisdome shall it speak unto us?
talk to ya'll later.
Amanda |
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[May. 5th, 2006|12:09 am] |
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| How to make a necrocarlotta |
Ingredients:
3 parts jealousy
1 part ambition
5 parts |
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of emotion and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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[May. 3rd, 2006|12:04 pm] |
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I'm at work, things are good. life is alright... money probs as normal :-D anyways that will be taken care of. :-D
Games that I play, ie larp and online are entertaining as normal. Im mucho entertained right now from an online game Im involved in its called la by fire. I don't mind anyone knowing who I am on there. kinda evident since my writing style and typos.
I play a dude on there and well some girl character, and some other character thats a guy gets mucho jealous... and I haven't even hit on her. :-P heh. niiiiiiiiiiice. so that is very entertaining.
carlotta has a 7'2 toreador at her home teaching her entrancement and her to him dominate.... its been interesting scenes. I think its been no less than 15 pages each scene. we got to 20 pages one time. hehehe, think we might accidently hit more than 20 in the furture.
My gangrel got pummled because her personality came out and she didn't know where she was and didn't know english so she started attacking people. :-P heh. Um.... by a bunch of anarchs, they are nice guys but she got so embarassed she doesn't want to go back LOL!
Life here in RL is good. I miss people. alot. for some reason I feel like I talk to my computer more than going out sooo... interaction with the Amanda face to face is rare now a days.
all I have to say is,
I miss them.
thats all, I just miss. :-P but hey.. life and love with the sense of being is good.
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[Apr. 25th, 2006|12:26 am] |
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http://www.salon.com/books/it/1999/09/13/machtest/index.html
Go fig....
I scored 100 percent on this test......egads am I bitter.
The Machiavelli personality test has a range of 0-100
Your Machiavelli score is: 100
You are a high Mach, you endorse Machiavelli's opinions.
Most people fall somewhere in the middle, but there's a significant minority at either extreme. |
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[Apr. 24th, 2006|10:49 pm] |
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hmm.. odd
Find your own pose!
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| Update on things |
[Apr. 16th, 2006|02:14 pm] |
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Gregg might be comming home today, which is neato.
:-)he had three little insisions to take his appendix out. so he's got somewhat of a shaved tummy. hehe. one was near the belly button, just under it. one was on the lower right side, near the top of his right pelvic bone, and then alittle to the left, so it kinda looks like a triangle. :-)
I visited him today in the hospital, I'm going back right after I get something to munch on and try and find some sort of change to count up gas money. LOL, I think I have 7 bucks so far, so yey! I have gas! not alot but hey, to the hospital and back. WOOT.
He looked tired and still kinda rolling his eyes. most likely discomfort from the surgury. he said he was fine though. We talked to his mom on the phone, she knows everything is good, no missing limbs, fingers, toes,...just some hair and an internal organ. But it was about to burst. I understand why they wanted him in O.R. so fast.
Thanks to all those who've wished gregg well. He thanks ya too. I told him today when I visited him.
I made him laugh yet again..... I asked him "welp, no sex huh?" he shook his head and said "nope, not for a few days" I said.... "well then, thank god for vibrating friends" and gave him a serious look with an eyebrow raised. heh I love him soo much.
We just need to get him .. well and myself to getting healthier. the doctors suggested so. Hmmmm much thought must go into this! *to the recipet books!* we have actually many of them.. just haven't read any... bad me.
*HUGS* must eat! bye bye!
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[Apr. 16th, 2006|02:17 am] |
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whats with me and days eh?
friday? good, I liked friday... friday we went clubbing.
Saturday? Hmmmmm not so good but nice on sunday.
Saturday I find out we have nothing the account and infact negative mon mons. (thought I was going to freak, but was counting on the paycheck)
then I find that my check hadn't come from my temp agency, for us to pay bills. (hah, was going to freak but then was worries about gregg)
and gregg had to go to the hospital for his appendix to be removed, (wondering how to pay for this but then worried about gregg and no insurance)
Sunday? (if you want to be technical, 1:00 am is the next day) Everything was good. :-) he is fine, he is going to recover. breath of relief. the Hospital is enrolling us in a medical plan to help pay for the bill.
But yeah. hahahahaha I love it when days like that are always needed to know that... Money doesn't matter,it helps a fuck ton, but it's life.
and what helped me through it was ..well gregg :-) he's so cute even when he is half drugged dazed and confused back from the operating table. Also my friend Ginaloree, I went over her place just to say hi (it was really close to the hospital) she fed me and she made sure I was kew enough to smile. which she made me smile. yey for her! lovingness in the power of good friends who make you food and make you smile.
Yay for other friends, like bob, bryan and others for wishing gregg well, :-) you guys are cooooooo *HUGS to them*
Im gonna sleep. ......... i might eat again im not sure. but wow am I kinda drained. and all Im thinking .... gregg gets room service.... heh
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[Apr. 12th, 2006|10:19 am] |
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yeah, lastnight I was talking to a friend of mine, someone thats a good friend and I insult him with my honesty. I know Im honest... sometimes too honest, but then at times when I drink Im hurtful honest. :-( Damn me and my honesty.
I feel bad about it.. though it was a simple line that I said.... over the intervet you can't tell emotions or how its said so.. Meh, but blah... LOL.
Im at work, I wish I wasn't but then I wouldn't have a paycheck and Im allowed to be on the internet. ...... i think I got it alright. :-)
had a long talk with gregg last night... about things and it seems that my paranoia had struck again and I was over reacting. yey for talking about things... though I wish I wouldn't think too much. thinking for me is a bad mix.... almost like a molotov coctail.. where you see it just see the cloth burn until it gets to the bottel and then boom? yeah, thats me. when I think too much and don't talk about it. *sigh* guess thats with everyone. ....Im sure of it.. hope so. *grumble*
My friend said I had been drinking and saying things that quite honestly saying things that didn't sound like me.. and well.. *chuckles* yey, Im full of suprises.
So anywhoo, lastnight was good over all. heh, got to talk to gregg about stuff that needed to be said and talked about, and then pissed one of my friends off because of my honesty. And here I thought the Truth would set you free. *being silly* bah,
life...... don't talk to me about life!
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| questions, questions too many questions, you want the shard? |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|07:31 pm] |
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hehe love dark crystle,
OKAY!!! right now I feel silly and tipsy, yeah I know Im silly for being on the computer tipsy, but people can laugh at my expense. not shameful there. :-P
SO, Now its time for the Question game! See how many people actually see and read my journal. Or even Care to do either.
If you have a question about me, or about my life or about anything that has to do with me knowing you or you wanting to know more about myself, then..
BY ALL MEANS, ask me.
Im not shy at this point, so please spare with the pleasentries.
Ask away! and I shall tell you no lies.
Amanda |
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[Apr. 10th, 2006|11:17 pm] |
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who would have thought. |
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[Apr. 10th, 2006|11:06 pm] |
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You know.......I thought that people didn't like girls who flirt too much. LOL. I didn't get much of dating when I was actually dating. I scared em. from what I know my hubby got scared because I was very upfront and jumped him. heh.
#333333; margin: 5px; margin-left: 35px; padding: 0px; width: 440px;" cellspacing="0"><tr><th style="color: #000000; font: bold 13px arial, verdana, 'sans serif'; text-align: center; padding: 5px; margin: 0px; border: 1px solid #333333; border-top: none; border-left: none; width: 210px; background: #ffddcc;">Dating Strengths</th><th style="color: #000000; font: bold 13px arial, verdana, 'sans serif'; text-align: center; padding: 5px; margin: 0px; border: none; border-bottom: 1px solid #333333; width: 210px; background: #ffddcc;">Dating Weaknesses</th></tr><tr><td style="color: #000000; font: 12px arial, verdana, 'sans serif'; text-align: left; padding: 3px; margin: 0px; border: none; border-right: 1px solid #333333; width: 210px; background: #ffffff; line-height: 20px; vertical-align: top;">1. Adventurousness - 83.3%
2. Varied Interests - 71.4%
3. Financial Situation - 69.2%
4. Open-Mindedness - 63.6%
5. Flirtiness - 62.5%
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2. Pessimism - 50%
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Adventurousness - You are willing to try new things and be spontaneous. You want to get out there and really live, and you will attract people with a similar love of life.
Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of guys.
Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid guys who are only interested in your money.
Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys.
Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities.
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Humorlessness - You need to learn how to take a joke, or better yet how to tell a good one. A well-developed sense of humor is high on the list of desired traits for daters.
Pessimism - Too much cynicism can be a turn-off. Try to see the brighter side of things and people will be attracted to your positive outlook.
| | What Are Your Dating Strengths and Weaknesses? |
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[Apr. 10th, 2006|10:06 pm] |
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You Are the Individualist |
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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|06:06 pm] |
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hi there to my journal,
Im alive and well. better than expected I guess. Nothing interesting in the house of microscopic intelligence from the halls of my brain.
game was fun last friday.
ooooOOOOOoooo ooc it was soo much fun. IC it was a catastrophy. But in all it was wonderful.
Gregg got a job! YIPPIE!!!! at Best western as a web admin. :-) me I have to get a job after monday because welp my temp positon will be done. Oh well. I do have interviews on tues and wed. So yey.
I think I would like to apply somewhere different though... I feel like I need to apply myself differently somehow and actually try to make a difference. Or something... aaaaah its silly.
At the night of the game I saw this homeless man... he was alking to every car that was stopped at the stop light.... I didn't have anything to give. I ended up finding change in my pocket after the fact... which was a heart wrenching feeling.
I cried, I didn't know what else to do.. I want to go out and find a job that helps from what I saw even though I know that it will still be that way. :-( love when life has a way of just stabbing at your heart. *sigh* saturday and today I've been looking into jobs that have to do with homeless.. or something like that.
bah, silly anyways. Loves to all and talk to you all later in the depths of my brain.....I have several that I haven't spoken to ...think I left some doors unlocked. they should be comming out soon.
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[Mar. 27th, 2006|05:32 pm] |
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On friday went to A goth club called Transylvania, eh it was alright,
I asked someone if they wanted to go and I think they thought I meant a sex club. hehehehe silly.
well I guess I can understand because I was talking to him about a sex club called Discressions.
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